In three days I find out if I made it into midwifery school.
When I tell people that I am anxiously awaiting the news whether or not I made it in to Midwifery School, people ask me why I was drawn to this work, and why I am passionate about it. I am passionate about midwifery, because I am passionate about helping birthing people to feel empowered. Birth is a journey that has been called a “hinge moment” a moment where one stands in the threshold of a new life; the beginning of a new dawn. The moment of never going back to “how you were before” During this moment of raw vulnerability it is a human right to have a care provider that is sensitive to the intricate unique needs of each birthing individual. I want to be that individual that holds a place and space for this sacrosanct moment.
I could reminisce for days about the empowerment that left me feeling spellbound after giving birth to my daughter through the loving hands of my midwife, I had never felt so loved, so cared for, so supported though a “medical” experience before. I want so badly to replicate this same experience for so many others.
I have been a doula for 3 and a half years, I have attended 70 births, I have seen first hand many different birthing outcomes, not all of the outcomes were what the birthing person had hoped for, some of the outcomes were exactly what the birthing person was hoping for. But, the element of empowerment was rarely tied exactly to the moment of birth itself. It was tied to how people were made to feel, Maya Angelou’s words often ring in my ear “I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” Especially in the birth space, small moments and details will fade overtime, but how they were made to feel will stick with them for ever.